By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me,
Do I follow my instincts blindly,
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening
Do I sit here and try to stand it
Or do I try to catch them red-handed
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again

By myself (MYSELF)
I ask why (but in my mind I find)
I can't rely on myself (MYSELF)
I ask why (but in my mind I find)
I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
[To what I want when I'm stretched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything, watching everything spin]
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back I'm defenseless,
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone
If I, let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer,
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer

By myself (MYSELF)
I ask why (but in my mind I find)
I can't rely on myself (MYSELF)
I ask why (but in my mind I find)
I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
[To what I want when I'm stretched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything, watching everything spin]
With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid
That I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to

Don't you [KNOW]
I can't tell you how to make it [GO]
No matter what I do,or how hard I [TRY]
I can't seem to convince myself [WHY]
I'm stuck on the outside (x2)

I can't hold on
[To what I want when I'm stretched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything, watching everything spin]
With thoughts of failure sinking in

I can't hold on
[To what I want when I'm stretched so thin]
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
[To anything, watching everything spin]
With thoughts of failure sinking